oh, i have been neglecting you, paperbag! it is nice to have a public forum, sometimes.. actually, i have naught to write about.

i know! i am going to america in less than two months and i have all kinds of things to fret over. (well, just the one) i am still drinking too much vino, but this contriubtes to my fundamental dilemma. now is not the time to dwell on it however

the kids have just left for work, leaving the bathroom mine. i just adore taking showers late at night and waking with that extra half and hour to spend in the mornings.

LESS THAN TWO MONTHS! this should serve me well for letting myself go. i can't not excuse myself this time.. although. what makes me think i can get rid of this in two months when i couldn't for a year?

haha! oh, i can feel it already.. it has made me so jaded, i'm asked "you were speaking to him just an hour before, why the hell are you so shitty now?"

i feel so good for it though, i only hope because of the vulgarity and speed of it i will not get so ill again. i just don't know if it is worth it again. ::beat:: it is, for myself.

forgive me, but she is abstract.