oh, i have been neglecting you, paperbag! it is nice to have a public forum, sometimes.. actually, i have naught to write about.

i know! i am going to america in less than two months and i have all kinds of things to fret over. (well, just the one) i am still drinking too much vino, but this contriubtes to my fundamental dilemma. now is not the time to dwell on it however

the kids have just left for work, leaving the bathroom mine. i just adore taking showers late at night and waking with that extra half and hour to spend in the mornings.

LESS THAN TWO MONTHS! this should serve me well for letting myself go. i can't not excuse myself this time.. although. what makes me think i can get rid of this in two months when i couldn't for a year?

haha! oh, i can feel it already.. it has made me so jaded, i'm asked "you were speaking to him just an hour before, why the hell are you so shitty now?"

i feel so good for it though, i only hope because of the vulgarity and speed of it i will not get so ill again. i just don't know if it is worth it again. ::beat:: it is, for myself.

forgive me, but she is abstract.

mumblegrunt were at the loft last night! r0ck! the atmosphere was just amazing there, this is my favourite cover band here... actually, it was a pretty good night had everywhere, baby. djs from the rock were at taylors, rodge gave me a sticker because he liked my fucker t-shirt. haha! and at the grumpy mole i caught up with jenny and leanne which was something else altogether; i have not seen those two in almost a year... and at molly's i had a beer with worley, hadn't seen him in over three years.

gilly probably hates me, which.. is okay, i suppose. if i had to choose, i would rather be disliked completely than to be hit upon. i was looking after his cigarettes, but they kept falling out of the pocket of my jacket because it was tied around my waist, so i gave them to jenny. then she disappeared. a full pouch, nonetheless. poor gilly, but i told margi from the start, right when we were at the globe, to stop that bs. ::sighs a bit:: but it's all been straightened out.

aside from that wee fuck up it was a cool night.. however it'd be a lie if i said i should do it more often.... spent too much... man! money! remember i put my printer up for auction at trademe almost a week ago? i set the reserve for $20 and it had almost naught interest, but last night, before it was due to close, these two crazy bastards were fighting on auto-bid. i got an email this morning from the person that won it, it closed at $71. i love you, trademe. ::lick::

i now work a 40 hour week. it never occured to me until today when i had to sign a change of hours form, that, the management might not be comfortable speaking with me. i always figured it the other way, because i think, or like to, anyone could speak with me.. but maybe not. i never asked if the hours would be permanent, or just temporary, and i didn't give them a chance to say otherwise. haha! i've been doing some math, and it's looking pretty good for the time i should leave here, if i stick to my saving guns. ::holdsm tight::

the newest addition to the clique is just beautiful....

i'm pretty undecided about how i feel about father's day. it was pretty much a non-event for me because i slept away most of today, which was really nice. but-- i did get to speak with my grandfather this evening on the telephone, and his wife. man, she's crazy.. and i love her so much!

i'm working eight hours tomorrow. sw33t! although, because i've absolutely screwed up my sleeping pattern it's going to be difficult to sleep early tonight, and get up at 7. 7!! i don't know if it's just for tomorrow, or anything at all, because i was not the one that figured it out. i'm working this staurday, too, in clothing.

mo-nay! i want to shoot to wellington for a weekend shortly to stay with chill, the new air new zealand fares are good, only $99 return, i believe. that's not going to put a sizeable dent in my savings for america, and it's really worth it. she's coming down for new years, too. by herself! so i'm her date.. i can not wait! got to find something though, maybe the beach.

i must figure out how to get my recent entries, below right, to be aligned to the left. it works in every other seperation, just not that one. still gotta figure out cam, and hell... netmeeting? now, that baby is confusing. these things should be easy, even though i scoff at anything advertised as being 'quick and easy'; saying that we are all far too lazy....

i want to have a play around with this thing and fix the details on the right, and the title. but that's okay. it can wait-- i'm far more interested in tweaking my webcam. the picture i get is really quite small; and it's all in black and white now so.. damn. i'm also neglecting my poor livejournal, but it's nice writing with a certain amount of anonymity sometimes.

i just put my printer on auction at trademe.. i never use it and the extra money will come in handy. it seems i also lead in the auction for this skirt which i didn't remember bidding on when i checked my watchlist this afternoon. ::rotflol:: oh, well.

i'm missing mr marx. it was so nice speaking with him on thursdayfriday.. although i am dreading my telephone account. why did i not hang up and call back? it is $8 for two hours, but go over the two hours, and it's another $8 for the first ten minutes. or so. another skint fortnight.... ho, ho, ho.

i had seen one of these at sindy's place, curiousity coupled with acute boredom right now created this thing. that's my coat, too, baby.

i still think i got a lot done today. more hours, although uncomfirmed as being permanent are heading my way. i don't like the way i obtained them, but still.. man. it's gonna make such a difference. i am so thankful, for a lot at the moment. except the whole sick thing today; that just wasn't cool. nonetheless, it's looking better for me. all the time.

i need to get out of here. out of this house. away from my family. my brother. let me see, let me think. a bed, is all i need. rent and bond money. the rest i'll have to get as i go. mr loan is paid off in two weeks, too long, but still

$12,500

america can wait. i've been waiting, patient. i'll always wait for you, but i will not make myself miserable doing so. i am better than that, did you know it?